Widening Insomniac Perspectives on the Present Moment

I spent much of last night insomniac. Internally, this awareness stuck inside a thick intense wall of static — that’s the neutral term for it — which, if I allowed the wall to affect me emotionally, felt like intense anxiety. Which, again, if I let the “anxiety” cathect into the mind, triggered a boiling river of drastic thoughts about all the various crises I and we (on every level, psychic, household, pod, village, neighborhood, town, state, nation, planet) are in. Deep, drastic doo doo, to put it mildly.

This morning, as usual, I’m up and about, eating breakfast, walking with puppy Shadow, appearing to others as “normal.”

The weird bifurcation between the demons of my internal nighttime perambulations and the better angels of my waking nature has never felt so extreme. I do wonder how much of the “anxiety” (the static, underneath) is mine, how much is what I am picking up on in the collective unconscious. Or, I could ask, what is the difference between them? Can I separate my own deeper self out from the deep state that is us? US? WE? The U.S., USA?

Outside/inside, reflecting, refracting, kaleidoscoping, fracturing . . . on and on. And yet I sit here at my desk, typing all this as if I’m normal. Again, that word “normal.” According to “norms.” What norms? They have been destroyed, washed away in the tsunami of forgetting that every thunderstruck moment fractures into .  . . what? what? WHAT?

I have no idea. I am out of ideas. On the other hand, I do want to give the title’s promised perspectives. And since I began this post with my inner state, widening out, let me keep going out, out, to present some of what I was chewing on last night, in the darkness, alone, aware, and all too awake for way too many hours.

First, the widest, a piece from Dane Wigington, that courageous soul who has been asking the public to wake up to geoengineering for I think he said 20 years now. He’s right. Unless we have a habitable planet, the game is over. And when crocuses peek up and mosquitos land on our arms in mid-February, his attitude, that unless we STOP all geoengineering of the skies with chemtrails, we have about ten years before the Earth is completely uninhabitable, feels unassailable. (And of course, no matter what we “do,” or “don’t do,” it may not be enough, as he would readily agree.) His view of the future dovetails with Guy McPherson’s latest predictions. 

Weather Warfare Biggest Threat to Life on Earth

So, with that cheerful geophysical note for background, let’s look at the mid-level perspective of human theatrics, via the stranger and stranger political drama here in the U.S.

On the one hand Max Igan has now completely given up on Trump, says his recent warmongering re: China and Iran prove that he’s one of the deep state players, no more. Confession: I could only listen to about half of this one. Made me sick to my stomach. But love this phrase from host Sherri Wisdom: “We are all experiencing an uprise of the anchors from within.” YES!

Meanwhile, re: the ongoing ramifications of the Flynn fiasco, Steve Pieczcenik says it was to be expected, and no big deal!

The Saker begs to differ. And frankly, I very much appreciate the unusual fullness of his dynamically morphing perspective.

Trump Dreams vs. Trump Reality: Hope Still Permitted

On and on in the dizzying display of insane U.S. politics, where perspectives ripen and are left to rot with astonishing rapidity, leaving only linguistic traces. Have you noticed how “Deep State” has, since Trump’s inauguration, risen to the surface to join other words and phrases of these past several years, e.g. MSM (Mainstream Media), PTB (Powers that Be), and even Matrix (used to refer to the entirety of this human-made money web that has us all more or less entangled). It’s as if with these shortcuts we are creating a meta-language to talk about the matrix web — or is it just another strand in the old one?

Yes, I was psychically entangled in all this folderol for much of the night. But then,  early this morning, was slammed home, back into my body, and my feelings, what really matters. What did the trick? This article. Read it if you dare.

“I know they are going to die.” This foster father takes in only terminally ill children.

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Trump: Why Iran and China as the “new enemies”?

Despite his bursts of over-the-top egomania, I tend to want to appreciate over-the-top truth-telling wild card Trump, in no small part because of his campaign rhetoric about wanting to make friends with Russia. That is, I did appreciate him until he, or is it elements within his divided administration? started demonizing China and Iran! When parsing the seeming “pivot” to Iran and China from Russia, I found a current posting by spiritual/multidimensional geopolitical analyst Lada Raywhose success with predictions is unusually high —  enlightening. Her overall perspective is that the Earth is divided into two, yin and yang. The West (and especially the U.S.) is “yang”, and thus assertive, or when negative, aggressive, and  the East is “yin,” and thus receptive. Between these two, and linking them, as “The Great Balancer,” is Russia, its land mass the largest in the world. (And see psychic Edgar Cayce’s prophetic view of Russia as “the hope of the world.”)

Now if Trump really has decided to let go of Russia as Enemy #1, why does the American Empire seem to be turning now to to China and/or Iran as new enemies? Hell, that’s easy.  Because the military-industrial war machine absolutely must have an ENEMY in order to keep going, or, as Kukinich put it so succinctly, to continue to “cash in.”

And as Lada Ray puts it, since the U.S. won’t be “for” something (the active creative use of yang energy), it continues in its profoundly stuck habit of being “against” something.

Trump’s War vs. China and Iran, Russia No Longer US Enemy?

If you still don’t think that the humungous, overweening deep state war machine powers what’s left of the U.S. economy as its infrastructure continues to crumble —

11 deeply alarming facts about America’s crumbling infrastructure

— then check out the stated DOD expenditures for one month, January 2017, which I found on Sibel Edmunds site.

Newsbud exclusive report – A Distillation of DOD Funding Priorities for January 2017

DOD spent $12,867,000,000+ on 142 individual contracts in January 2017

The Pentagon issues a jumbled list of contracts every business day around 5:00PM local time. Our project distills an entire month of these contracts into an accessible form.

The U.S. Department of Defense (DOD) spent at least $12,867,000,000 on 142 individual contracts during January 2017.  This amount does not include 15 Foreign Military Sales transactions worth $587,227,000.

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A.K. again: I can’t bear to post the whole list. It’s just so damn long and disgusting. But DO check it out, at least skim through. And of course, these are just the STATED expenditures; we’ll never know the off-book “black budget” for that same month, nor what secret projects it’s funding.

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Some notes on Self-Care, Sanity, Psychiatry, Drugs, and Pedophilia

But first, we must learn how to treat the self well. And in this culture of rampant corruption and top-down abuse, the road from childhood shame and guilt to responsible self-care is long and hard.

Yesterday, on my morning walk with puppy Shadow, a young man walking in the opposite direction stopped to ask me if I would mind answering a few questions. Given that his eyes and demeanor felt innocent and eager, I said okay. It turns out he was taking a class at Indiana University that was investigating how the new administration’s approach to health and insurance would affect seniors; he was supposed to ask a few of them. Of course his first sentence was an apology for including me in this group — in this culture it’s taken for granted that no one wants to “look old.” I just laughed. No sense in delving into that topic, it would take us too far astray.

But to his main question, I simply started in on how I live my life, and how I care for my own body. Told him that except for getting short-term health insurance for a three-week float trip down the Grand Canyon back when I was in my late ’40s, I did not have health insurance until I was automatically enrolled in Medicare. “Part A,” I added. “I don’t want Part B.”

Then, I dug in. The reason I did not have health insurance, I told him, is that for over  four decades I have made care for my own body primary, with two hours of physical exercise per day (including 3-4 mile walks, yoga, chikung and taichi), mostly organic fresh food, enough sleep, and continuous conscious monitoring of my changing physical/emotional/mental/spiritual condition. Given my longterm reflections on this matter, I now assume that what we call “disease” is exactly that, dis-ease, a state of being ill at ease, i.e., not at home in one’s body, which in turn, is not at one with the body of Earth.

I don’t go to doctors, I explained. An exception was four years ago, when I broke my wrist tripping over a root on a forest trail. Otherwise, I use natural remedies and methods, those that have helped humans heal from time immemorial, and they are pre-industrial, pre-pharmacological.

I can’t remember what else I told him, but his eyes widened continually, as he strove to make sure his little phone mike was catching every word.

So, I concluded, since I’m not really in the population that looks outside myself to figure out whether my health needs are or are not going to be taken care of, I guess I’m not a great subject for your study.

“Oh no! Oh no!” He exclaimed. “This is great!”

And with that we said goodbye and continued in our separate directions.

Now of course, given my way of thinking, there are likely those in the psychiatric world that would call me “crazy.” And certainly, I am crazy if sanity is defined as social agreement. Because I very definitely do not go along with anyone who thinks that the responsibility for the state of one’s physical/emotional/mental/spiritual vehicle on this beloved planet lies outside the self.

Here are two pieces that I find interesting in this context. First, we notice the usual ties to Big Pharma. Which reminds me — and yes, I’ve told you before that there are now two CVS legal drug dispensaries within three blocks of where I live.

Psychiatry’s Darkest Aspects in the Big Pharmonopoly

Note that the second piece ties back into the signature issue of pedophilia. Just as Sibel Edmund’s long fascinating tale of systematic corruption ended up there, so did Sigmund Freud’s attitude towards women, all of whom, he claimed, merely “fantasized” incest with their fathers (cf. “the Oedipus Complex”).

The Dark Underbelly of Psychiatry

The ghastly, still mostly hidden dis-ease of pedophilia is real, it is longstanding and ubiquitous. If we wish to heal, then we need to address pedophilia and its ramifying complexity NOW, both in our personal lives and as a society.

 

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“Who’s afraid of Sibel Edmunds?” An FBI whistleblower’s extraordinary tale.

I don’t know if I’ve ever been so riveted as during this last hour and 20 minutes. Sibel Edmunds, a still young woman so fearless and relentless that it’s as if she wields an electric prod to wake us all up, tells the 16-year tale of how her 2001 “whistleblowing” (a label she had never heard of at the time) about criminal actions at the highest level of the FBI was refused, not just by her superiors, but by congress, the executive branch and the courts. Furthermore, she was the subject of a “state secrets” order — not just once, but twice! — forbidding her to talk about any of what she had discovered.  So, what did she do? She put up a website, “State Secrets Privilege Gallery,” with pictures of those she wanted exposed, but no names. (She hadn’t been forbidden to publish images.) And, of course, within a few days, other citizen journalists found out who they were and named them.

This is an example of not just her relentless determination, but her intensely creative fire that finds ways around, or ways through, all the obstacles that our criminal federal government and MSM (and supposedly alternative left-wing) media continue to put in front of her.

[NOTE: I have corrected my interpretation of her chart (I hastily put her Sun in early Aquarius), and included a very important note about the connection between her chart and that of the U.S.A. Both thanks to reader Zoidion.]

Check out her chart: Sun, Mercury and Venus in late Capricorn, the sign ruling traditional structures; Moon in curious, data-driven Gemini; Sagittarius Ascendent that insists on Truth and colored by its ruler, Jupiter, in Scorpio, exposing underworld secrets. Her Uranus at the Midheaven stirs up whatever she touches in a very public way, and her strong nature is powered by both that triple Sun/Venus/Mercury conjunction which happens to be conjunct the U.S.A. Pluto, and her intensely analytic and courageous close Mars/Pluto opposition in Pisces/Virgo.

Please take the time to listen to Sibel’s extraordinary tale. And be warned: it is liable to fire you up to the point where you too might actually put your own life on the line. What are you supposed to be doing, what is your unique path, during this thundering climactic era when we are being invited, by the Love that fills and fuels the universe, to CHOOSE LIFE.

 

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I catch up with current projects in Green Acres Village

Barely! So much energy and activity around here for a supposedly “dead of winter” time that it blows me away. 

PHOTO ESSAY, village life: February 14-18, 2017

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Insomniac discoveries re: pedogate. DHS insider, ex-CIA operative

Last nite in the wee hours, insomniac. A regular occurrence, during which I gravitate towards podcasts and youtube videos. Sometimes they put me back to sleep. Which is good! These two did not. The first is an incredibly clear and succinct description of the dots and the connections that I have also made, by a “DHS insider.” Of course I love being “affirmed” in my shit-detecting, perspective-making capacities. On the other hand, I also realize whatever I think I know now will dissolve inside the next horizon shifting event. Here’s the transcript, should you prefer it.

Listening to this short video put me on to Robert David Steele, a former CIA operative. And wow, does he speak what at least seems to be truth! Again, his use of language is exacting, clear, and unfailingly interesting.

Here’s an example. There are plenty of others.

The point is, EVERYTHING LEADS BACK TO PEDOGATE AS THE BIGGEST GLOBAL CANCEROUS SECRET OF OUR TIME that, once exposed, the Israeli domination of  the USG is over. Period. Kaput. Steele mentions that as much as 1/3 of all U.S. figures in high places are implicated. The rains of both corruption and citizen journalism just keep flowing in; the compartmentalized walls that hold back the deluge of feeling for the ruination of our innocent children are being eaten away.

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New (Sufi!) Publicity for Green Acres Village

My dear friend and Sufi mentor, Darvesha MacDonald, badgered me for months to contribute a story about our Green Acres Village to the launch of a beautiful new Sufi magazine, Ruhaniat Ziraat, which celebrates Nature as Our Teacher. If you recall, I accompanied Darvesha when she facilitated a wonderful weekend dance in Fort Wayne, Indiana a few years ago. She spent some time here as well, and has been thrilled with to see how we are evolving as a community.

“Let us eat, dance, and pray together”: A Dances of Universal Peace Weekend

Sufis celebrate “Green Living” in Green Acres Village 

Oh wow, just noticed that Darvesha will be helping to direct this year’s Jamiat Aam in Madison, Wisconsin, March 23-26.

I signed up. YES!

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Michael Flynn: Hanging in the Wind, or Strategic Sacrifice?

So. Of course I have been foolishly riveted by the Deep State drama signaled now by the firing of Michael Flynn. I especially appreciate this SOTN post, which links his official demise to his stated knowledge of the pedophilia abomination.

Deep State Fired General Michael Flynn

(BTW: What in hell is this Hillary Tweet linking Flynn’s demise to Pizzagate supposed to mean?)

Kucinich Agrees with SOTN, on Deep State involvement:

“Wake Up America”: Denis Kucinich defends Trump, Issues Dire Warning about Deep State

However, is it more complicated? Other analysts see this firing as evidence of a division within the Deep State: one part (the part that just got him fired, and that includes warmongering Hillary and other neo/libcons) arrayed against the part that includes Trump and, I presume, Kissinger (who, from what I read recently, recognizes that the U.S., rather than being “exceptional,” needs to recognize itself as but one nation among many).

For example, Pepe Escobar:

Flynn Resignation: The Swamp Strikes Back

In any case, both divisions of the Deep State assume centralized control is necessary, exactly the assumption that the we, the people of the world are beginning to contest, wherever we live, knowing that we must take back control over our own lives and localities.

Others see game over, that the Flynn resignation essentially finished the Trump presidency.

For example, The Saker:

Neocons and the Deep State have neutered the Trump presidency: It’s over, folks

Alligator attacks grow ever more vicious:

“He will die in jail.” Intelligence community ready to “go nuclear” on Trump

But was this “game over,” or just an opening move? Stay tuned. Whatever happens, it does seem that multidimensional geopolitical analyst Lada Ray is right, Trump will be hampered in every way as he tries to enact his stated agenda.

 

 

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Astrology of Oroville Dam Emergency: Metaphor for Emergence of Our Damned Up Feelings

What happens when we dam up our feelings? Answer: either they eventually infect the body with disease, and/or they eventually spill over in pain, or explode in fury, or both. And why do we damn up our feelings? Because we were taught from an early age, over and over again — both boys and girls, and especially boys — not to be “crybabies.” Our cathexis into (left-brain) “mind” began then.

Yet our feelings are real! They both reside in our bodies (themselves made of Earth, remember?), and they are meant to flow, to express, to move naturally, in concert with the utter uniqueness of our unfolding nature! To honor and acknowledge our feelings releases us from left brain tyranny that seeks perfection as a veritable AI machine, with digital inputs, outputs and defined channels through which they are piped, via “logic,” from top to bottom (innate, apriori) or bottom to top (empirical, aposteriori).

At the bottom, in “sensation,” resides our living bodily communion with the natural world. At the top reside all our constructed “assumptions,” known and unknown, the conceptual helmets we use to lock ourselves in to only certain types of perception and analysis. Thus are the dams inside us, walls created in the mind, anchored in as “belief systems.” The inevitable contradictions between them result in compartmentalization, even multiple personalities, so that, literally, the left hand doesn’t know what the right hand is doing.

Compartmentalization is ongoing, both within ourselves and inside this culture, where secrecy and the “national security” state has allowed/encouraged/forced human beings to forget/ignore that they are working for corporate forces of total destruction. Indeed, I personally know one Navy Seal and several others  who work for companies that derive all or most of their business from military/industrial contracts. And these beautiful souls are all, in their “spare time,” environmentalists! How do they do it? They compartmentalize. They tell you they compartmentalize. Of course! Otherwise they would “go crazy,” so profoundly antithetical are their stated values with the jobs that support themselves and their families in the matrix money world.

And of course, such compartmentalization is everywhere, keeping us apart and divided, unable or unwilling to connect the dots. For an extreme example of compartmentalization, see my recent post that includes an interview with Kathy O’Brien, MK Ultra mind control survivor.

Meanwhile, there are forces in play during these years that we call “color revolutions,” where paid agents are inserted into crowds to drum up outrage on both sides of any polarity. Divide and conquer. Foment chaos to bring in the centralized New World Order.

Since our authentic feelings have been damned up for centuries, and since we live during a time when all sorts of dams are being breached, it’s no wonder this George Soros destabilization strategy seems to be increasingly effective.

Furthermore, those thick internal walls we didn’t know we ourselves built take an enormous amount of energy to maintain, just like those damn dams in the external world. The result can be clinical depression, when whatever tiny truckle of energy we do manage to muster from the infinite universe congeals inward to maintain that stuck unconscious defense system.

How many people in the U.S. are currently on Big Pharma meds for depression? I don’t know. But —

From 1999 to 2012 the percentage of Americans on antidepressants increased from 6.8% to 13%, according to a report published this week by the Journal of the American Medical Association (JAMA).

The point is, these long buried feelings — in both the individual and collective   unconscious — are coming up now! Following the years 2011 through 2015, when the still-echoing Uranus/Pluto focused a tense exact 90° square seven times and began to undermine all the institutions of the so-called civilized world, since 2016 we have been subjected to the intensity of wild card Uranus in fiery impulsive Aries closely conjuncting the deep background object “Eris” (named for the Goddess of Discontent). Furthermore, from late December 2016 until mid-September 2017, this conjunction (Eris at 23°, Uranus at 21°) sits opposite expansive Jupiter at 23° Libra.

And now the kicker: During the next two weeks (last two weeks of February) transit Mars ignites this three planet array — Uranus/Eris opposite Jupiter — as it conjuncts Uranus. 

Please, let us consciously recognize that during these two weeks our task is to continuously rebalance (Jupiter in Libra) the volatile, war-like actions, disruptions, disputes, controversies, enraged polarities igniting now. How?

Stand centered and strong, feet gripping the ground and head open to the sky. You are an antenna for Earth! Your body is Earth’s connection to the cosmos! Allow the universe to direct energy through your vertical body as it funnels in from Above and Below: focus on pulling that energy down from Above and up from Below to mingle in the heart, and then . . .  RADIATE in all directions the universal Love that fills and fuels the universe. 

Yes. Notice it, this Love. Consciously notice this sweet, thick, nourishing amniotic fluid bathing the womb that embraces all of humanity.

This conjunction between Eris and Uranus, near exact now and in powerful play until the end of April, will echo through at least 2018. It is up to each of us to recognize and learn how to work with this deep background energy with awareness, SO TO SHIFT IT INTO INTENSE CREATIVITY. It’s either that or go to war — against ourselves, and/or each other, and/or the entire planet.

Given the astrology of this time, and given the emotional volatility everyone is feeling and that even the most aware among us are having increasing difficulty holding back from full expression, I find it extremely significant that the very tallest dam in the United States, 770 feet high! whose announced need for infrastructure maintenance has been ignored for at least the past 12 years! — is currently in danger of complete collapse.

Worst case scenario: 100-foot tsunami would wipe out entire cities if there is a catastrophic failure of the Oroville Dam

Hey everybody! Let’s wake up! Come to our senses! Use this strong emergence, not to throw rocks — or missiles, or drones, or nasty words — at each other or ourselves, but to dissolve the walls that separate compartmentalized pools of deep, damned up energy, whether internal or external. Let us muster the courage to embrace the vulnerability that attends our experience when feelings flow, without judgment, and without becoming reactive. Simply: Allow and honor them enough so that they may dissipate naturally. Our feelings are real. They alert us to our unlived lives, due to longstanding and worsening systematic inequality and institutionalized abuse among equals. As we do release those long buried feelings consciously, we begin move into union, harmony. Humanity is reborn.

It will take a while to get there. Of course! But we are up to it. This is our time.

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California Dam Calamity: Incompetence? or By Design. (And so what? Does “the cause” or “causes” matter? If not, what DOES matter?)

After six years of devastating drought, some of us (foolishly?) assumed the fact that California was again receiving rain was a good thing, a powerful sign that the cabal was losing the weather wars. Then the rains came again, and again. Here are two perspectives on this unfolding drought-to-deluge drama that is scouring Mother Earth and currently displacing (into highway gridlock) upwards of 200,000 people and their animals  for an unknown length of time. 

Oroville dam emergency demonstrates how incompetent bureaucrats are marching California into collapse at every level

and

Was the Oroville Spillway engineered to collapse at an appointed time? 

No matter what we consider the cause or causes, let us imagine ourselves there, on the ground, in our cramped car with our loved ones, animals, and hopefully, a full tank of gas, a bit of food, stashed money, stuck in “traffic” (i.e., other cars with equally scared people and their animals and precious stuff) below this dam, on the floodplain. How would we feel? And why is it easier to relate to (temporary) refugees in the U.S. than to (likely permanent) refugees streaming from the devastation of U.S. caused wars in the Mideast to Europe and elsewhere?

The LA Times has an unusually full compendium of stories relating to the latest U.S. disaster. This one holds the kind of significance that reminds me of impacts on Earth and earthlings during the BP spill in the Gulf, Hurricanes Katrina in New Orleans and Sandy in New York City. And then, of course, there’s the ongoing catastrophe at Fukushima. What’s next? And how to prepare? Not just for physical survival, but especially for active stewardship centered in spiritual equanimity, no matter what? Joanna Macy’s advice feels more and more essential as we turn to face, headlong and largely blind, the accelerating turbulence and associated breakdowns of structures and processes — both internal, in our own psyches, and external — that we took for granted, politically, culturally, geophysically.

Joanna Macy, on how to prepare internally for whatever comes next

 

 

 

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