Let us recognize and balance Evil with Good: Four Stories

I used to think of myself as a “liberal,” of course! — until . . . I’m not sure what all happened; it’s like a long, fuzzy smear, looking back; but at some point it became startlingly obvious to me that the word “liberal,” even though still being used by the left, had transmogrified into, what? This article makes a good case for recognizing the left’s degradation from authentically liberal into the divide and conquer attitude of “tribal” identity politics. And the results are not good. Not at all liberal.

That the article should focus on Jussie Smollett now, when he was just arrested for staging his own “attack” in order to inflame the right, is perfect!

The Jussie Smollett hoax and the media’s tribal war on America


Now to turn from the merely awful to the truly horrendous: In line with all the news that IS being slowly fed to the people about pedophilia, satanic abuse, full term infanticide, plus child, blood, and organ trafficking, did you realize that philanthropic “organ donors,” in order for their organs to be viable, must donate them prior to death? And that up until 1968 there was no such thing as “brain death;” that so-called, recently named “brain death” is not actual death, but signifies that the dying person is ready to donate? And that this donation occurs with meds inducing paralysis, but not sedation? I, for one, am taking my name off the organ donation register TODAY.


Horrifying Facts About Organ Harvesting Procedures and U.S. Laws


Meanwhile, how’s this for wonderful? An Alabama four-year-old who goes around the country feeding the homeless while dressed in a cape. Says he feels like a Superhero and wants to be president some day. What’s his superhero name? “President Austin.” Not sure how current this news is, but it sure makes a feel good story, and we sure do need these stories during dark times.

Here’s another “good news” story, very welcome:

In Historic Announcement, the World Health Organization (WHO) Proposes Removing Cannabis From Most Dangerous Drug Category

The point is, what we see is what we get. We can concentrate on bad news or good news, or, even better: recognize the bad news while intending that the good news spread and deepen. Balance, folks. The bitter with the sweet. That’s what life is, after all: BITTERSWEET. Always. Both!

BTW: are you aware that the taste for “bitter” is generally not included in the American palate; instead, just “sweet,” endless sweet. Reminds me of the damn smiley face that used to be everywhere. Not so much anymore. We’re digging in, buckling down, recognizing the good with the bad, the evil with the sacred, the bitter with the sweet. Yes.

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Can we now utilize Qanon to redpill reluctant friends and family?

That was my question when I watched this video, which Q posted, titled, and appreciated.

What strikes me about this video is how the Q “proofs” demonstrate mastery of the 3D temporal dimension, i.e., of linear time-lines: past to present to future. With “future proves past” often cited over the past year and a half since Q commenced, what appears to be direct communication to the American public by military intelligence works to expose, undermine, and bypass the fake news MSM.

The goal of course, is to “red-pill” the public — as in the movie Matrix: do you take the blue pill or the red pill? Take the blue pill and you stay asleep; take the red pill and you WAKE UP! — see through the matrix.

Here goes:

I’m thinking right now of all my friends and relatives to whom I want to introduce the above video. And I might couple this intro with a recent Michael Salla book review:

Woodward Book Critiquing Trump Misses Secret Military Plan to Dismantle Deep State

Imagine what it’s like to be Trump! Here’s a cartoon Q posted yesterday, and says the creator, Ben Garrison, is welcome to visit the White House. All he has to do is ask. Oh, and check out the tiny “Q” above the Emergency button . . .



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MOON LORE on day of February’s Full “Blood Moon”

Today’s Full Moon, which occurred at 10:54 AM EST (so we can’t see it; this Full Moon happens for North America in daylight, with Moon on opposite side of Earth from Sun), is one of the year’s three biggies, Blood Moons, though this February Full Moon is apparently the biggest, because closest to earth (called “perigee”).

Here’s what the Blood Moon looks like when it is close to the horizon, either rising or setting.

And here’s space.com’s somewhat jaundiced perspective on it, perhaps because there’s an actual mention of astrology! Why? An astrologer, Richard Nolle, invented the name.

‘Supermoon’ Syndrome Rises with February’s Full Moon 

This Full Moon actually, coming at the very beginning of Sun’s month-long passage through Pisces (and the Moon into its much shorter passage through into Virgo), offers only one close aspect, and that’s a close sextile to a waning conjunction between Uranus and Mars — Uranus at 29° Aries, Mars at 3° Taurus. So yes, given the Uranus/Mars contact, there will probably be some sort of  sudden eruption of shocking news. But then, what day hasn’t featured shocking news lately?

The Sabian symbols for this Full Moon:

Sun at 1° Pisces (Sabian Symbols always move to the next whole degree):

“In a crowded marketplace, farmers and middlemen display a great variety of products.”

Rudhyar Translation: The process of commingling and interchange which at all levels demonstrates the health of a community.

Moon at 1° Virgo:

“In a portrait, the significant features of a man’s head are artistically emphasized.”

Rudhyar Translation: The capacity to picture to oneself clearly the salient features and the overall meaning of any life situation.

I invite the reader to allow these symbols to flood your psyche, as in the manner of Pisces! And to then look at details that might occur to you as a result of that commingling, as in the manner of Virgo!

Finally, I thought I’d take a moment here to list the significant questions that I and others have long held about the Moon itself. I list them as Q anon lists questions, somewhat cryptically; like Qanon, I invite you to do your own research.

There’s plenty to draw from, and it’s all either on the internet, or reverberating inside your own body.

The questions, in order of increasing incredulity:

Is it true that there are more bar fights, arrests, etc. on Full Moons?

Are we humans, as Gurdjieff said, “Food for the Moon”?

Does the Moon govern both oceanic and hormonal tides, especially for women?

Do women’s menstrual cycles gradually shift together towards New or Full Moons when living in the same house?

Did we ever really go to the Moon?

Is China really there, on the back side of the Moon, now?

Why doesn’t the Moon rotate like other celestial bodies? Why only one side, the same side, facing Earth at all times?

Is the Moon an alien (ET) base? Are there bases on the back side of the Moon?

Is the Moon an artificial satellite of Earth?

Was the Moon towed in from somewhere else?

Is the Moon hollow? Does it reverberate when banged?

Is the Moon, with Saturn, part of an external ET? control system? Saturn’s cycle is 29.5 years, Moon’s cycle is 29.5 days. Coincidence?

Me? I have no idea what’s true and what isn’t. Though I do love to speculate. And for many decades now I have viewed the Moon the way Gurdjieff did, as a “heavenly body” that traps us inside its tiny orbit, unless we WAKE UP! In which case, we can learn to critically (Virgo!) see through the Moon-driven hormonal, oceanic (Piscean!) tides of our emotional bodies and whoosh on out into the larger universe.

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Border Security? “Poison pills”? And Trump’s National Emergency announcement. WHAT’S REAL?

I watched Bombard’s body language, referring to Trump’s announcement declaring a National Emergency for the border wall outside the W.H. She expressed surprise at how hesitant and non-Trumpian he looked and sounded. That he kept looking down, fiddling with papers, and so on.

Body Language – Trump Declaring National Emergency for Border Wall

Her analysis dovetailed with doubts I was having, thanks to stories I had seen in various places about “poison pills” buried in the spending bill that contained items such as saying that local communities along the border would be able to decide whether or not their portion of the wall got built. And of course, if that “poison pill” is true, if, as Trump says, then all migrants have to do is go around the wall and pour through those open areas, then him signing the bill, which he did, is a betrayal of his promise to construct a high wall across the entire border of the southern U.S. In which case, it looks like Trump was defeated by Nancy and the libs, who BTW, other sources say, are paid off by those who don’t want the wall including drug lord kingpin El Chapo. Oops, maybe not? But can you trust so-called “fact-checker” snopes? NO.

Did El Chapo Testify that he gave millions to Pelosi, Clinton and Schiff?

Hmmm. Well then, who can you trust?

The other day I picked up on this item from among the enormous number of  Q drops during these possibly climactic days:

But of course, again we must ask, can we trust Q? I tend to think so, and have thought so, ever since Q began to roll out his enigmatic coded military intelligence(?) posts that call for us to recognize that the Deep State swamp- draining takedown is rolling out bit by bit via meticulously ordered events planned in advance, and all heading in a fruitful direction.

On the other hand, remember that Q also warns: “Disinformation is necessary” — in order to confuse deep state actors who are also reading Q posts. So who knows what Q posts contain disinfo?

Meanwhile, I also find myself following the X 22 Report on a daily basis, very much appreciating Dave’s research and the way he thinks about the complex, multi-layered, three-steps-ahead, 4-D “Art of War” manner in which Donald Trump appears to think.

Here’s Dave’s post that refers to the possible “poison pill” matter; 1793b. Check in at about minute 15, and again at about minute 33.

Hint: Dave says that communities along the border have always been consulted as to the wall in their area; however they have not had final say; nor will they in the future as the wall goes forward.

Disclaimer: I’ve never been one for impenetrable borders. Indeed, in the long run, I know that we will all come to realize that the world is one, and that all humans need to be free to pursue their dreams, wherever they may lead. However, at this time, when the deep state globalist roll-out calls for dismantling all national borders and encouraging migration in order to mix various cultures together to the point of chaos, which then, in the usual Hegelian “Problem, Reaction, Solution” manner would have all of us begging for a centralized, police state authority to take control and save us from murdering each other, I am definitely FOR national borders.

Ideally, the global civilization can eventually decentralize from national borders into small geographical niches, with whoever lives in them connected to both each other and the land.

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The Real Green New Deal continued . . .

See this, first:

Green New Deal spurs conversion to Permaculture?

Then, check this out. I had no idea that Big Ag sends American produce overseas to be processed, and then sends it back for sale, just like other products!

Of course, it’s best not to eat processed food at all, especially since it’s usually GMO with all sorts of chemical poisons added. But good also to realize that land used for food that’s sent overseas to be processed could be used to grow organically, permaculturally, in small, community-based plots . . .

There are Trillions at Stake

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After more than two years, WHY IS TRUMP STILL PRESIDENT, or even, STILL ALIVE?

I realize that there are many “narratives,” i.e., dot-connecting threads, that could be spun  to account for the fact that, after more than two years, despite massive opposition from moles inside, and open or secret foes outside, the White House, Congress, the Courts, the CIA, Justice Department, FBI, the entire Democratic party and all the RINOs, mainstream media, Hollywood, snooty liberal academics and others who see Trump as either an idiot and a fool or a power-mad emperor — President Donald J. Trump has still! not been either assassinated or impeached! Some think it divine intervention, and regularly invoke “God” to account for everything that happens here on Earth. Well, maybe, but as my son Colin once remarked, when he was only three years old: “There’s lottsa gods!” To me, invoking god, or “the deus ex machina,” is just like the ending to a well-made play: you can’t figure out how to make all the various dramas coalesce into a single, fabulous denouement, so you just invoke the bearded man in the sky, he who figures it all out. I.e., invoking “god” is just a way to pretend that you can’t figure it all out. And yes, most likely we can’t figure it all out, but this here is one of the best narrative attempts I’ve come across.

Shadow Warriors: How Trump’s Praetorian is Saving the Republic

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Left Brain/Right Brain = Whole Brain

I’m in the midst of cleaning up my desktop in prep for transferring all my files to a new MacBook Air computer. (This one, a MacBook Pro, is eight years old and running slower and slower, hotter and hotter.) The MacBook Air will enable easier travel.

There were two images on the desktop that I never got around to using, and so I will now!

I didn’t notice before that these images refer to left brain and right brain, and that no wonder our culture prefers the left brain, since pain and suffering require us to enter realms that feel darker and less “rational.” In fact, not at all rational! I can remember, at 39 years old, when I finally decided that I had to heal myself; I intuitively (right brain) recognized that in order to do so I would need  to remember, to re-member, to put myself back together again, from birth (or even conception!) on. With Alice Miller’s Drama of the Gifted Child and Jung’s Memories, Dreams and Reflections as my guides, I knew I would need to somehow feel my way back in memory, further and further, deeper and deeper, until I discovered the suppurating source of the original wound that had torqued me into switching from original whole brain (right and left) to left brain only. Because that’s what happened. That’s what happens to us all.

Let’s face it! The left brain is our computer brain; and just as a computer doesn’t feel pain, nor does this section of our minds.

Just as our culture is compartmentalized, so are we as individuals.

Given that most people are on screens just about 24/7 now, we could say that as a culture, we have “projected” our left brain out onto our devices, and then interact with them with our left brains as if they were our companions. But of course they are not. They are merely AI robots, only following what their algorithms tell them to do. There’s no creativity, no mystery, no breakthrough involved; just the mindless following through of bits and pieces according to rules based on assumptions built into programs.

I dare you to enter the mysterious and confusing realm of moving back through memory, to uncover your own original wound, that place inside yourself that is encrusted with pain, and sinks into the gloom whenever your awareness even dares to approach it! I dare you to  ask your higher self for help in both uncovering and exploring this wound, and then in healing from it. As we do this work, we also begin to heal the ancestral wounds that repeat themselves through the generations.

There is no greater, more noble, more sacred, work, than this, the healing of the Self, filling the hole in our being that was created by our refusal to recognize our full complex, contradictory, paradoxical, left brain/right brain natures. We fill the hole, in order to become whole.

That is the moment, the very moment, when we begin to actually live.

Imagine. Thousands, millions of us doing this. This most sacred work.

I’ve long looked at the immense power locked up in the nuclear bomb as symbolic of the immense power of the universe locked up inside each one of us. Imagine that bomb exploding! Imagine the explosion of creativity that would happen then!

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A.K. Reader repost: CENTERING, Beyond the Path of Polariy

Over the past three months, I have faced, embraced, and amazingly enough, erased, a serious, even catastrophic polarity that developed between our little Green Acres Permaculture Village and several departments within the city of Bloomington. While it is not time to speak about this matter, I can say that thanks to both my own training in centering (see below), plus both community and official support that came out of the woodwork when things got tough, and the transforming attitudes of certain employees within the city gov, we have all successfully dissolved this polarity. Life can begin again. And when did it dissolve? On Valentine’s Day!

As a person who is acutely aware of life in the In Between, as one who recognizes that we who experiment with new, regenerative forms of life inside the old decaying culture must continuously dance with the misunderstandings and confusions that arise to both fudge and frictionalize the edges between the new and the old, I feel immensely blessed that this serious matter did clear, beautifully, thanks to the efforts of so many involved.

In honor of this process, and of all the others that we humans create for ourselves to learn the lessons of 3D life, and especially, in honor of the enormous, seemingly impossible divides that now beset our body politic, I repost that old essay, from 1990, here.

CENTERING: Beyond the Path of Polarity

by Ann Kreilkamp

This essay was first published in Welcome to Planet Earth, Virgo edition, 1990.

Two weeks ago, I underwent a crisis in consciousness, one in which I feel I narrowly averted locking into an old, insidiously destructive path. This path is familiar, like an old friend. I know the path intimately, how it begins, how it proceeds. Indeed, the groove of this path is so well worn, that had I stepped onto it again, I would have found it exceedingly difficult to remove myself before repeating the entire painful cycle exactly, yet one more time.

Many of us are on this path. Those who learn it well win the prizes. This particular path is so inextricably intertwined with the subtle underlying texture of western culture, so much a part of the motivating force which fuels behavior, that it is difficult to imagine ourselves operating without it.

This same path pervades all of life, from sibling rivalry to the educational system to international politics. Though known by many names, and operating under many guises, the most common name for this path is “competition.”

We teach the path of competition from grammar school on, beginning with contests in spelling and other subjects, including sports. Here, though we give lip service to sportsmanship, fairness on the playing field, we all know what counts.
What counts is to win.

In international politics, the path is now becoming known–and, thank the Goddess, critiqued!–as the “zero-sum” game. Where if one wins, the other one loses–and then feels bad, wants to get even, fans the flames of war. In our worst case scenario, the specter of MAD, 50,000 (or is it now “only” 30,000?) nuclear warheads aimed at each other across the globe has made its absurdist point.
There is no “winning” a nuclear war.

Our growing understanding of the shadow side of competition in world military affairs has yet to filter down into daily life. The path of competition still prevails in just about every field of human activity in western culture.

Think of our legal system, for example. Again, a zero-sum game. The most profound and glaring example of competition however is the western economic system. Capitalism is our sacred cow; it elevates the path of individual competition to a high and increasingly ruthless art.

In my own experience, I think of graduate schools of philosophy, and other rarefied academic disciplines.
Here, competition is standardized as the path of argument. Seminar discussions, dissertations and colloquia are all contained within its well-known framework. The path of attack and counterattack. Or, if not proof of one’s own position, then at least disproof of the position of one’s opponent.

In academia, this path is not only taught, it is celebrated, justified as “objective,” “rational,” by those who like to think themselves objective and rational.

For those of us whose thinking is becoming more self-reflective or psychological, however, the same path could be called the path of “projection,” or “polarity.” It is a path we now wish to move beyond.

For this growing group of people, the phrase, “we create our own realities,” is the key which opens the door to the deeper meaning of our lives. We view experience symbolically, as the external expression–or projection–of inner beliefs and attitudes. We understand what happens on the outside at any one moment as the result, in the physical world, of the way we have previously imagined things to be.

We call this new–and most ancient–way of understanding the world “metaphysical,” i.e. beyond the physical. Abstract in conception, it is thoroughly practical in application. To begin to live metaphysically is to effect a radical reversal of the way we understand cause and effect. Rather than being victims of “what happens to us,” we are its creators.

One corollary to this reversal is the idea that we are collectively responsible for the state of the world now. That if we wish to change the world, then we must begin, each of us, by changing ourselves– the ways we think and see and do.

Another corollary is the idea that there is no such thing as objectivity, and therefore no rationality as previously conceived. Instead, all positions are seen as points of view relative to persons, not objective but subjective.

Once we reach this metaphysical understanding of the path of polarity, something happens to us. We can no longer identify with our particular points of view in quite the same manner. Our former passionate intensity in defending our positions against their opposites begins to fade…. But I get ahead of my story.

My own course down the path of polarity began in earnest when I was a graduate student, being coached by my mentor, a professor of philosophy. This man was Jewish, Israeli, intimate with the tragic history of persecution endured by his ancestors. He was deeply familiar with polarized situations, and given his pugnacious temperament, also quite accomplished at setting one up where it did not exist before.

Naturally, my mentor always occupied the minority position within any polarity, played the role of the persecuted one, victimized, and yet courageous in the face of overwhelming odds.

But it wasn’t just his temperament which led him into scrapes. It was also his unflinching need to see through to the heart of things. Both of these qualities in him fascinated me–initially terrifying me, then drawing me to him like a moth to the flame.

My mentor believed that, by and large, Truth is not valued by society, and that one who speaks truth automatically sets up a polarity against him or her, becomes like Cassandra, ostracized.

As a double Sagittarian, I had found my teacher. We both valued Truth, and he was to teach me how to both understand and work with the social consequences of telling it.

Quite naturally, my mentor taught me to play out the same role he did. Taught me that in order to speak the truth I must accept the personal attacks which, he assured me, were inevitable results.

The first years of my training involved learning how to think and speak clearly. He had no patience with fuzzy or muddled or superficial minds, and to the extent that I brought such a mind to him, he was ruthless in forging it into an engine which could both make exacting distinctions and yet see in far-reaching ways.

He taught me to question all my assumptions, question them down to bedrock–and beyond.

He taught me that, indeed there is no natural end to this process, that all our “rational” thinking processes rest on nothing, on empty space. A self-styled “skeptical” philosopher, he taught me to realize that intellectual certainty, my goal since childhood, was chimerical; that those who think they can reach it are fools.

And yet, when I had finally chewed and assimilated the consequences of his teaching to the bone, when I had begun to speak and act as if I had truly embodied his skeptical philosophy, he shouted at me, accusing, shocked at my audacity: “You are a relativist!”

“Thank you,” I bowed and replied.

My mentor thought that he was damning me with these words. Instead, I felt congratulated. To him, “relativism” meant “anything goes,” because nothing can be counted on. It is a view he thought, which justified any sort of behavior no matter how pernicious.

For me, to be a “relativist” is to recognize that there is no certainty in knowledge, just as my mentor taught me. Unlike him, however, I looked–and found–a basis for ethical action in another realm altogether, the realm reached through “centering.” But again, I get ahead of my story. . . .

Though my mentor understood that there was no way to rationally justify knowledge, his emotional response to the fact that I, his student had become a living example of his conclusion, showed me that he still needed to justify knowledge–not rationally, but emotionally. Underneath his own debunked intellectual need for certainty was the deeper, instinctive emotional need for security, safety.

He was able to shift intellectually, but not emotionally. He could not embrace with his whole being the idea that, in truth, there is no truth to stand on, that wherever we are, we are nowhere–and that even this truth cannot be proved!

Though this man could not personally take the final step which his own philosophy entailed, he did teach me much about the sociology of his fellow academic philosophers, how they too were afraid, even more afraid than he; and being less willing to admit it, they were more likely to hate the one who made them feel so afraid.

Thus the path of polarity–and persecution.

He taught me that the actual index to the value of what I was saying was a function of how strongly it shocked others, polarizing them into two camps, pro and con. He taught me to say what I had to say so clearly and so powerfully, that people would either love it or hate it, come down on one side or the other, either for or against.

At the time, this learning was exactly what I needed to break out of the paralysis induced by my upbringing. I had been reared to be a shy, sensitive and very good girl, one who didn’t make waves, who blended, as far as possible, into the prevailing winds. Now my mentor was teaching me to sail directly into the wind, to stand straight and tall in the face of hurricane forces.

In my birth chart, this entire situation, both during childhood and as a graduate student, is indicated by an unusually precise yod formation. First house Mercury/Venus in Capricorn inconjunct (150° from) both sixth house Saturn in Gemini and eighth house Pluto in Leo, the later two planets in (60°) sextile; all these aspects exact within one degree. In addition, Mercury and Saturn are in mutual reception (each in the other’s sign), co-dispositors of the entire chart.

As a child, I was serious and dutiful, my intelligence blocked. As a graduate student, this Saturnine influence mutated into the more Plutonian depth of approach, thanks to my mentor.

So, I was in good hands. Being taught by a Jew to remember my own persecution at the hands of others who wanted to shut me up. Being taught courage in the face of those who would have my head. Being taught to tell the truth anyway, no matter what the cost–and even though I couldn’t prove it.

That was 21 years ago. I honor this man for his profound teaching. Truly, he saved my life, he ignited the life that was in me, the Sagittarian fire, and guided me into the recognition that there is no end to the search for truth, that no matter how far I go, the journey is endless. Not only endless, but I have discovered along the way, joyful, creative, inspired. Or it can be. It is, if I stay clear of the well- known groove mentioned above.

During this year, transiting Uranus crosses my natal Venus/mercury, triggering the yod. Old patterns of thinking shatter. As they break down, light shines through the cracks. I begin to quicken with the joy of continuous discovery.

And now, as of two weeks ago, I realize for the first time in the origins of my own scapegoat mentality in the teachings of my mentor. I see now where it came from. Now that I see it, I can let it go. I want to learn to tell the truth in a way which does not invite attack, which is larger than this relatively narrow manner of communication.

Two weeks ago I almost started down that same old road again. In an essay I wrote, I first presented my own view, and then compared it and contrasted it with the view of another. I set up a polarity with him. It felt so natural to do it this way. So real. So definite and clear.

I was standing on one point, my “position,” and looking across to another point, finger cocked like a child using her hand to mimic a pointing gun.

Luckily, with crucial help from a dear, dear friend, I caught myself in time to not make enemies. To not get caught up once again in that polarized place, that limited space where I distract myself from presenting what I see. Instead of allowing my imagination to proceed further, I have gotten caught up along the way with defending my position in the face of real or imagined attack.

Psychologically, the mechanism seems to be the following: When I begin to attempt to describe the further reaches of what I see, at some point I grow afraid. Like my mentor, at some level I too still fear infinity, endlessness, continuously opening space.

In response to fear, my mind contracts, to a level at which it feels secure. First, I posit a point in space where I “take my stand.” From here, I look out and create (project) another point, at a certain near or far distance from the one upon which I am standing. And I then say this is not that. This point is not that point. I define myself through what I am not. I am not like him. He becomes my “opposite.” I become not only intellectually, but emotionally involved in seeing myself “win” over him. One more zero-sum game.

This time, immediately prior to the whole sorry cycle beginning again, I caught myself preparing to do it a and recognized where it would inevitably lead.

I create my own reality. In order to change that reality, I must first change my mind, by enlarging my vision. I want to begin to see the epistemological mechanism of projection and its hostile repercussions in behavior from a more mathematical or visual point of view.

Thinking visually, I can view my “opponent” as merely the other end point of a line which I have just created through positing a point across from my own.

This line, in turn, can be visualized as the diameter of a circle, the size of which is determined by the length of the line, by how near or far away I originally posited my “opponent” to be.

I have created a circle around myself, where formerly there was open space. I have created a circle and I am caught inside–without realizing it.

Whereas before I was afraid of openness, so now I am afraid of its opposite–claustrophobia! I seek a way out, want to break out, to punch my way through by destroying the point opposite to the one upon which I think I am standing.

In reality, I am no longer standing upon this point, which is now a point upon the circumference of the circle. Somehow, I have jumped to a point exactly halfway to the other side. I am standing in the middle of the circle now. I must be. Otherwise I wouldn’t feel so enclosed, so surrounded, on all sides by potential enemies. . . .

So, resolution to this self-created conflict is first to visualize the initial polarity mathematically, as a line, which in turn becomes the diameter of a circle. The next step is to consciously realize that I have placed myself “squarely” in the center of that line, that circle.

As long as I stand in the center of the circle without awareness of being there, I feel surrounded, enclosed, claustrophobic, even paranoid. Once I recognize that I am standing precisely there, and that this circle is one which I have created through the psychological mechanism of projection, my experience of the circle changes utterly.

Now I feel myself in the center, equidistant from all points on the circumference of this particular circle I have created to “orient” myself.

As the goal, in childhood, was intellectual certainty and emotional security, so now the goal of both head and heart is centering. As I center myself in the precise center of my experience I find I am standing upon the very ground I was seeking all along.

Standing in the center, I sense the circumference of the circle I have created as a membrane, rather than a wall. It breathes, it moves, vibrating in resonance to the beat of my heart. Rather than being something I must break through to once again express my freedom, I can now rest within the circle, as one more form through which I both orient myself and direct energy.

For I sense my capacity to create an infinite number of concentric circles, both larger and smaller than this one. The circles radiate in all directions. The circles are frameworks or structures, paradigms within which I “make sense” of perception.

Each of these circles can be visualized as a globe or sphere or dimension of awareness. Each one contains an infinity of points, both upon its outer and inner skins, and within the space which it encloses. Even in a limited space there are no limits. Between any two points, there is always a third.

In order to bypass my old habit of limiting my perception by tying it down to work as merely one end point of a polarized point of view, I recognize myself as the center of a continuously expanding universe. This is the lesson, the message, of the entire generation into which I was born: Pluto in Leo.

Each of us, as unique and singular individuals, stands centered, radiating outwards from the center of a universe which has no outer limits, no circumference. Each of us as the eye of our own storm, the stillpoint of our own turning world. We are creative agents, attuning ourselves to and expressing ourselves through larger and larger spheres of awareness–forever.

We are all creators. We all breathe the same air. Our hearts beat to a universal biological rhythm, a rhythm entrained with other more subtle rhythms, all of them in concert as the universal harmony, the music of the spheres, the song of ourselves. We are one. We are many. We are the one in the many. All polarities dissolve in the swelling sea of infinite space.


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