A.K. Reader: The Ruins of Time (1990)

Re-reading this old essay as I retyped it into a word doc, plopped me right back there, to the Greece of 28 years ago. It’s been nearly an entire Saturn cycle since that day when Clarissa and I, on a long walk uphill in Jackson Wyoming, decided to set our sights on Greece. Neither of us could afford it. But we could each of us save up for a year to spend a month in Greece. So we did. A first trip “abroad” for both of us. 

The essay brought me right back, and yet I kept trying to imagine what Greece must be like now, now that further layerings of time, each like a punch in the gut, have, I imagine, overwhelmed the romanticized Greece of personal memory.

First big change: cell phones. My friend who lives part time on the island of Crete, and whom we stayed with while there, told me a few years ago that every young boy on a donkey now has a cell phone.

No wait: even before that there was the Euro, to replace, I presume, the drachma. That changeover hadn’t happened yet when we were there, in fact wouldn’t for another 12 years, though Greeks were already nervously gearing up for when their beloved nation would be fused and diffused into the “European Union.” (Looking it up now on wikipedia, I see that 11 nations adopted the Euro on January 1, 1999, and not until two years later did Greece follow suit, on January 1, 2001. And then, on January 1, 2002, all 12 nations formally introduced Euro banknotes and coins as the single legal currency.)

Finally, there is the horror that Greece began to undergo a couple of years ago, when the Central Banks of the EU started to pummel it with “austerity” due to “debt.”

So, I wonder: Is the Greece of my memory even recognizable now? Have the still discernable ruins of time wrought by the ancient past been overwhelmed by the layerings of soulless early 21st century technocratic “reforms”? 

One phenomenon that has NOT changed, however, and that’s the continuous, confusing, roiling energy of “terrorism” (war) in the nearby Mideast. At the time Clarissa and I were visiting Greece, Bush Sr. had just sent 200,000 troops to what later became known — after Bush Jr. one-upped his father and started the “second Iraq War” — as “the first Iraq War.” Since that time, further layerings — war on Syria, war on Libya, and who knows where else? Al Queda and Isis, moderate and nasty rebels, which are which? I can’t keep anything straight in my head regarding the complexities of who is who and what’s going on where, over there, and most likely, that’s by design by those NWO perps who simply won’t give up their wet dream of a united centralized one world order police state. 

So I wonder, does the Greece that Clarissa and I encountered even exist anymore? If not, then consider this essay a dream.

 

THE RUINS OF TIME

by Ann Kreilkamp

Published in Welcome to Planet Earth, 1991

Late November, 1990. I am standing at a kiosk in the Plaka district in Athens, searching for an English newspaper. Willing to fork out 300 drachmas ($2.00) to read about the larger world within which this month-long journey is being conducted. I’m hungry for news, riveted by the mushrooming crisis in the Middle East.

No luck. “No anglika.” Huge headlines shriek only in Greek. Motorcycles roar past on all sides, the noise level continually building to a climax. The intensely passionate talk and gestures of the Greek temperament no longer feel strange. Nor does the fact that modern cosmopolitan culture is nonchalantly conducted among mysterious ruins of ancient temples.

Our weeks immersed in the mountain village life of Crete are over. Already they seem like a dream, a vision — one long backwards hazy layering of time into eternity.

Certain memories I will treasure forever. Already I sense their fertility, promoting a subtle mysterious mutation within my entire being.

The day, for example, when we walked the dirt lane from the village down to the valley floor, past an old graveyard on the left, a herd of long-haired goats on the right, to visit a 2,000-year-old grove of olive trees. We were walking quickly, absorbed in our talk. Now, under the leafy green canopy, it is as if we have entered a great cathedral.

Instinctively, our voices fall to a hush. Our bodies slow down, finding new/old depths. Minds are useless here; they cannot encompass this reality. Our bodies have been taken over, magnetized by the palpable vibration of these great and hoary tree beings. Silently, we wander through acre after acre of silent, gnarled majesty, mute witness to the various peoples and cultures which have inhabited this ancient land.

A row of stately cyprus trees lines the edge of this grove. Mere remnants of the rich cyprus forest which covered Crete in ancient times. Here too, the earth has been depleted, the wild animals reduced to only scorpions and the rare red fox.

Nearby, the stone ruins of an early Greek Orthodox temple warm in the sun, covering yet another ruin, this one a Roman bath. Scraping aside the branches of a tenacious creeping blackberry bush, we find the pattern made by thousands of tiny tiles still partially visible.

And everywhere, rock walls, tumbling down or nearly verticlal, tarracing mountainsides into tillable land. Some walls new, some old, some very very old, and all built in the same way. Time has not changed either the construction methods or the donkey driven plowing of these tiny fields.

Time here is present as a continuum, forming a temporal spectrum as vast as the ocean which surrounds this fabled island. And yet, there is a heaviness to this experience of time, a gravity, almost a sense of oppression. The longer I remain in Greece, the more I feel in my bones how the past spreads its arms to receive, to condense, to crush, to stratify, to obliterate. Our mortality is an inescapable and haunting fact.

This fact is contrasted by another, and opposite, fact, one which astonishes me. For the heaviness of time’s duration is shot through with light. The light of human awareness shines through the gloom, leaving traces of itself along the way. These are the distillations of time, ofmemory, of culture — through the architects’ organization of space, the artists’ working of function and material into form; they bear silent testimony to that endless creative capacity which both expresses our humanity and lives on.

Every ruin we visit here is so rich and laden with memory that my brain short-circuits. There is no way out. I drop down into my body, seeking resonance, a way into the mysteries, those moments when the deep past and the present collide, fuse, leaving me changed.

That sunny afternoon when I turned around to see the view from the other side of the recently excavated site near the village of Eleutherna, on Crete, and suddenly broke into tears, overwhelmed by the utter familiarity of the place, its feel, its topography, its views.

The sense of recognition had begun earlier, during the ride down to Eleutherna. A deep inner thrumming in my solar plexus and heart, growing louder and more insistent as the miles went by. My companion noticed it too, within herself, and said so. She and I were sharing this journey to such an extent that I sometimes felt unnerved, wanted to create boundaries between us, to keep my identity clear. Over and over, one of us would voice what wa sin the other’s heart, or mind. Over an dover, we would enter an experience, feel it the same way, and leave when we both sensed it was over.

And now, at Eleutherna, an ancient recollection of the views: to the northwest, rolling terraced hills, covered with olive groves, stepping down for miles to the blue Aegean; to the southeast, hills stepping up to fade into the gradual rise of the great broad back of Mount Idi, birthplace of Zeus. Finally, directly across from the site, a cliff rising upwards in what I call the overthrust angle, between 25 and 30 degrees from the horizontal. Land forms which rise in this particular angle, which also describes many Wyoming cliffs, has haunted me all my life.

I will also treasure that lovely morning when, strolling into the ruins of the healing sanctuary of Eleusis, and becoming aware of the calm and peace of the countryside there. I felt suddenly sleepy, lay down next to an old stone wall and was instantly asleep — only to read later that the healing at Eleusis was accomplished through sleep and visions which come through dreams.

The day after our first day in Greece we took the bus to Delphi. There we held what we later realized was our initiation ceremony. Breaking the rules, we sneaked into the most ancient sanctuary there at night, the Taurus Full Moon night in November, and the very moment we sat down on the innermost round stone rim, the clouds parted to reveal the Moon.

That was my first experience of stopped time in Greece, of a time that opened into space, spreading like the rays of the sun. The sense of expansion was breathtaking, and eerily contrasted with another, and opposite sense, operating simultaneously. This was of my body, feeling heavier than usual, rooting itself to the stone beneath, first three chakras opening to suck in the energy of the Goddess. As if I were a suckling babe. As if I were thirsty, and She gave me Her breast to drink.

We felt her power that night, for the first time in Greece. Contemporary Greek culture feels it too. The Goddess lives on, though in perverted form. She inhabits tourist shops and jewelry stores. Her serpents of silver and gold wind around wrists and fingers, dangle from ear lobes. She has morphed into a commodity like any other, Her value commercial, secular, a tourist diversion on the way from one greek salad and moussaka to another.

Knossos, Phaestos, Mallia. We visit the ruins of these ancient palaces, stroll through traces of archaic splendor, drink in the elegance and bright spirit of one people’s artistic temper. The Minoan culture on Crete was Goddess-graced, the final outpost of Her long and abundant dominion, a sea-going enterprise which flourished all over the Aegean.

Standing inside the snake room at Knossos, the room where two extraordinary snake goddess statuettes, now to be found in the museum in the nearby city of Iraklion, were unearthed. We had been awestruck by these figures upright together bdhind glass, their mere presence speaking volumes, commanding instant attention, respect, even reverence.

And now, staring into the two snakepits, each of them six feet deep, a faint tremor pervades my body, as I imagine snakes winding around my arms, my chest, my waist. Fear. A fear which our culture encourages. A fear which nevertheless fascinates.

The Goddess. She to Whom I have been giving lip service for over ten years. She Whom we cam eot Greece to seek, and now discover that we are indeed driven to find Her, to absorb Her deep earth wisdom. She within Whose embrace ancient European and Mesopotamian Neolithic culture flourished peacefully for thousands of years.

The Neolithic ruins are the most ancient to have been excavated. Directly above the Neolithic starum sits the full brilliant blossoming of the Minoan culture which, in turn, was suddenly destroyed in 1450 B.C. by the eruption of the volcan on the nearby island of Thera.

It was upon this rubble that classical Greek civilization was founded. Greek civilization: said to be the birthplace of western art, culture and philosophy. Its ideal of human beauty is still ours. Democracy is said to have been born in Athens. And Greek philosophy is still the foundation on which western thought is based.

The word philosophy, etymologically, “philo-sophy,” means “love of wisdom.” We have been educated to believe that our culture began with the wisdom of the Greeks — despite abundant archeological evidence lining this civilization with earlier, and wiser times.

At least this is my view. Otherwise, how could the peaceful Goddess culture have flourished for thousands of years if there had been no truly perennial wisdom guiding it from within? On the other hand, here we are, as usual either in a war or threatening one. And here I am, searching for a newspaper, wondering which one we are in.

The original source of our civilization’s preoccupation with destruction is, of course, pre-Greek. Biblical. Eve, tempted by the Serpent to eat the Apple of the Tree of Knowledge, “seduced” Adam to take a bite, too. In retaliation, God the Father banished them both from Paradise. Yahweh would have no “false gods” before him, no snake goddess, no real wisdom.

In the time of Greeks, what little remained of the great Mother Goddess, and Her snake, symbol of earth wisdom, was demolished. The Greeks split Her into various parts, the Greek goddesses Hera, Aphrodite, Athena, et all. They hacked the Mother apart, divided Her wholeness in order to conquer. This dismemberment they then celebrated yearly, by re-enacting the myth of Herakles defeating the Python.

We look upon ancient myths to seek the causes of things. We came to Greece to seek the Goddess, to learn from Her, to resonate with Her, to ask for Her wisdom in healing our troubled souls.

The second wave of 200,000 gas-masked young American men (and now, women!) is now on its way to the Middle East. A so-called “new world order” (on the Great Seal of the United States: a “new order of the centuries”) is being manipulated into hasty and volatile form by western politicians as a reaction to the latest eruption of ancient hostilities in Mesopotamia, original fertile home of the Goddess, and now a bleak desert, its searing heat a perfect symbolic mirror of the boiling tempers of those who would kill each other and themselves for greed.

I find it difficult not to be cynical about our human prospects, when this critical time in human history is being approached with such an infantile state of mind. Cynical, that is, until I recognize the state of the world as a mirror of my own soul! And if I am part of the problem, then the solution to the problem, for me, must begin with me.

Just yesterday, for example, having succeeded in my search for a newspaper, I noticed myself reacting to the news in the same way I did as a child! Picture this: a five year old girl down on her hands and knees, newspaper spread out on the floor in front of her, hurriedly scanning the headlines for news. No news is good news. The world won’t end today. My daddy won’t go back to war today.

So yesterday, reading the news, I noticed Bush said Hussein had until January 15 to pull back from Kuwait. “Oh goodie,” said my inner child. “I have at least until January 15 to stay alive. I can relax until then. The world won’t end until then.

No matter how “enlightened” I think myself to be, I must reocognize this older, more primitive, “childish” statum within my own psyche. I must acknowledge that consciousness is not a steady state; rather it is an uncertain, flickering light, sliding, usually involuntarily, up and down the scale of lesser to larger awareness. And, to the extent that I am not aware of the deeper, darker, less rational spaces within my own psyche, I am as liable as Bush or Hussein are to do something drastic, infantile, to act without thinking of the larger consequences.

The layering of time as seen through successive strata of ancient ruins in Greece finds its parallel in the layering within my own psyche. All times are present here. The further back in time my awareness probes into my own deeper layering, the less likely am I to be able to use my mind to figure things out. In order to encompass these inner “ruins” I must surrender, let go of my mind, trust my body to move into its natural alignment with what I am seeking to understand.

And if I am part of the whole, and if the dynamics of the part are structurally identical to those of the whole, then in order to resolve the current crisis in the Middle East, we must transform our manner of approaching it.

We are accustomed to thinking with our heads, trying to figure things out. Clearly, however, this situation is such a hornet’s nest of conflicting and complex issues, both current and historical, that our usual attempts to understand will not work.

The currents which animate the Middle East, a land of violent contrasts, are deeply religious, emotional, tribal. They stretch back through the centuries. They have evolved within cultures utterly foreign to ours. The only way we can even begin to approach this situation is to release our minds and drop into our bodies.

We drop into our bodies and we feel. We feel our pain. We feel our own pain so long and so acutely, that the pain intensifies and deepens, opens. We plunge into a black hole, dropping into the well of collective pain which has nourished humanity for centuries without our being aware of it. To actually enter the water of our feelings — no matter how painful they may initially be — is to dive into our aliveness, our vitality; our feelings are the fertile spring from which our souls have always drunk.

To allow ourselves to feel our own body’s pain is to overcome our alienation, that acute loneliness which affects creatures numbed to the life within their own bodies. To drop down into our bodies is to become one with the collective body, Earth’s very being. She is the repository of everything that has ever happened here. Her mountains, Her stones, and Her trees contain our collective memories. To feel Her weeping, pulsing Self is to make deep contact with all other beings, human ad otherwise, residing on her skin.

Although our cultures may differ, our nature is the same. We humans are embodied beings. Through our minds and spirits we are protean, creative, wildly and gloriously differentiating through language and custom and art. In our bodies, we are one. Our bodies all have the same feelings, the same needs, the same instinctive life. They root us to the planet. They do not lie. Within the life of our bodies lies the common ground we share with all earthly creatures. The Goddess still rules, She is immanent with us, She is the body wisdom we can and must tap into.

To become one with our bodies is to feel the continuous pain of thousands of years of cultural and religious differences converging, and erupting now, in the Middle East. It is to connect with each other, to acknowledge each other, to understand each other, to heal our shared pain and begin, not just to survive this crisis, but to truly live as the Goddess intended.

 

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6 Responses to A.K. Reader: The Ruins of Time (1990)

  1. JK says:

    Crete.
    Mid-1990’s, my own first trip “abroad”. I placed myself in front of my brother-in-law, who had just written a book about love, or let’s put it this way: about Love Thru Lifetimes. I went to see if he could expand that sentiment and stretch his own heart to include even me. And then there she was, my sister, and we uncovered that love that went back 50 years, now bruised and torn – we started to mend, we spent a couple of days just talking. Then I went to Mount Idi, ascending with craggy Stavros and a young boy on the donkey. Descended into the mouth of the crater, came to the hollow in the wall where Zeus’s mother had hidden her newborn from his murderous father Creon, and with my head buried in the stone cradle I just shook and cried. And later on the plateau with a little flute, the wind blowing my leather jacket wide open, my arms spread out to the sides, the flute played a strange and wild song of its own. Yes, Anne, I remember Crete. I would have wandered those hills with you if only ….

    • Ann Kreilkamp says:

      Oh my oh my oh my! Is this the same JK with whom I traveled in Siberia and Mongolia last summer, now with a different email address? Or are you another, but equally wondrous, soul? Curious.

  2. claudia kimball says:

    Dream/Greece/Democracy
    Approximately two weeks before the AIG crash I saw this in a dream.

    I am seeing people grouped in clusters. I can only describe the scene as a fancy
    international cocktail party where people are being served by liveried waiters.
    The perspective of my perception is looking down on the event which is
    taking place in what I would describe as a large reception hall.
    Abruptly the scene changes. I am now looking at the ground. It is an off white or ecru
    color of Mediterranean sand. I look up and in front of me, his back to me, is a nude man.
    He is as tall as the sky and his body is the color of the sand.
    As I watch, suddenly, his knees buckle. I hear my voice or someone’s say ‘oh no!’
    What was impressed upon me was that once the knees buckled he just let himself fall.
    There was no writhing or struggle. His body unraveled in small whirling eddies and I
    saw it dissolve into the earth/sand leaving no trace of itself. Finally all that I see are
    what look like little prairie dogs sitting up on their haunches watching.

    As I awakened I thought …I just saw a God fall. What is it, western civilization,
    democracy? I didn’t know what to think. I never imagined that Greece itself
    could be in jeopardy. But the image that made least sense of all to me was
    of the little creatures watching.
    2015
    Weeks ago in the wee morning hours I awakened realizing that the position of the
    ‘little creatures standing on their haunches watching’ most accurately expressed that
    of myself as one of the people, only able to watch without a voice.

    I had watched the February 16, 2015 interview with Mr. Varoufakis. During the interview he used the word kickstart. The word jumped out at me and I thought, I want to do a kickstarter for Greece.
    It seems we the people of the world do not have a vote on determining how our world will be.
    Maybe we could enact a democratic process through this vehicle or another to establish a world fund in order to stand with Greece in her struggle with these international cartels. Am I using the right terminology here?
    If we can do nothing else, we, the people of the world, can be the chorus for this tragedy.
    If Greece is lost it will be the world’s loss.
    It is the World’s loss. Those in control are lost in forgetfulness. Is it Nepanthe?

    • Ann Kreilkamp says:

      Wow. Incredibly fertile dream. Certainly, since that time we have recognized more fully the “death of democracy” in the U.S. I do wonder how Greece is faring now.

      • claudia kimball says:

        Athens has signed a €368.5 million deal to sell the operator of Piraeus port to the Chinese shipping group COSCO, Reuters reported. This is the second major privatization for the country since last year.
        Read more
        © Yorgos Karahalis Greece for sale: Germans to run Greek regional airports as part of bailout deal

        Under the deal, COSCO will acquire 51 percent of the listed Piraeus Port Authority for €280.5 million and the remaining 16 percent for €88 million after five years, once it concludes mandatory investments. The company will invest €350 million over the next decade, and will pay an annual fee to the Greek state for running the port.

        The Chinese state-owned company was the sole bidder for the port. COSCO already operates the container terminal in Piraeus under a 35-year concession it acquired in 2009. It is investing €230 million to build a second container terminal at the port which it plans to turn into a logistics hub for Chinese exports to Europe.

        The Port of Piraeus is a gateway to Asia, Eastern Europe and North Africa. It handled 16.8 million passengers and 3.6 million 20-foot containers in 2014.

        “Let the ships sailing and bringing the Golden Fleece,” said COSCO Chairman Xu Lirong. He added the company will continue to be committed to Greek long-term growth and will invest in upgrading the infrastructure at the port and new jobs would be created.

        Piraeus port workers, however, say they are worried the deal would put their jobs at risk. Dockworkers marched in central Athens on Friday to protest the sale.
        Read more
        © John Kolesidis Greece accuses IMF of stalling bailout review

        “This is not a concession, it’s a giveaway of property belonging to the Greek people,” said Constantinos Tsourakis, a worker at the port. “Why should China be masters of the game at Piraeus and not the Greek state?”

        READ MORE: Occupy Athens: 200 leftist activists block Greek Finance Ministry protesting economic reforms

        The sale of Piraeus is part of Greek creditors’ demands to secure a third €86 billion bailout package. It goes against Prime Minister Alexis Tsipras’ pre-election promise not to privatize the country’s infrastructure.

        Last August, Athens approved a deal to hand over the operation of 14 regional airports to a German company. The 40-year contract worth €1.23 billion was awarded to Fraport AG, which runs Frankfurt Airport.

        3629
        I think this is a ripe example of the blatant take over of a country’s national sovereignty through financial manipulation and domination. Unlike the US, those countries who have relinquished their own currency for the Euro can no longer print their own fiat money. They cannot create their own currency within the amount of time they must to be functionally viable because the technology to do it is too embedded everywhere and too complex. They have become bound within the territorial legalities of the bureaucracy of the eurozone.

  3. claudia kimball says:

    Greece sells largest port Piraeus to Chinese company – RT.com
    https://www.rt.com/business/338949-greece-china-port-sale/
    Apr 8, 2016

    This should have come at the beginning of the article I reprinted above. My apologies
    for not including initially. The “I think” part is my opinion

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