Dear Briana is visiting over the Solstice; late this morning she and I compared notes on 2 a.m. “anxiety.” Me: “It feels like icky static throughout my body. When I’m able to be fully present to each and every second of it, I do fall back to sleep. But usually, the mind keeps interjecting, trying out different “reasons” for the anxiety. At least I no longer describe it as “dread.” And you know, it really does feel as if this malevolent energy is being beamed throughout the atmosphere to drive us all crazy. You know they have the technology to do it. As well as the intent, as far as I can tell. And without the capacity for full, centered, continuous presence, it really does drive us crazy.
So, if instead, I choose — that’s a loaded word; actually, if I let my addiction to screens and the constant stream (scream) of info/disinfo get the best of me — then I turn on the damn ipod and find a youtube video or podcast to listen to. Last night, this one, starting around 4 a.m. when I gave up trying to “remain present” to the awful, yucky feeling. Finally fell back to sleep around 6 a.m.
BTW: when a podcast or video does not allow me to go back to sleep, then it’s worth paying attention to. That’s my criterion for telling you about it.. And this one, which featured three committed pedogate (child trafficking, child organ harvesting, etc.,) investigators with Hagmann and Hagmann, had my full reluctant attention all the way through. As someone said there, fully 75 to 90 percent of government is implicated, and they keep each other in line through MAB (Mutually Assured Blackmail). So yes, it’s time, way past time, to “head the soul of this nation.”
It’s really unfortunate how many people still haven’t awakened to this cancer that infects all levels of our civilization — including, and especially, the “upper crust.” From these citizen journalists’ point of view, only three people currently in power are trying to cleanse the world of this menace: Trump, Jeffrey Sessions, and Vladimir Putin.