This Project Avalon video was forwarded to me a number of times before I finally got a chance to watch the whole thing (actually, since she sits in one place for the interview, it’s more audio than video; I went ahead and did my yoga/chikung/taichi practice with it . . .)
All those who comment on this video seem to find it utterly extraordinary — and this puzzles me.
I find it quite ordinary, in the sense that of course, that is what we do, we live our lives in the center of ourselves and watch the world change around us. Or, I should say, we who have lived long enough to realize that we can choose to live either from the outside in (where our behavior is conditioned and reactive to others’ expectations), or we can live from the inside out (naturally radiating the source of all that constantly flows through us into the world around us).
Enelia is unusual in that she began to live from the inside out when she was very very small, and what woke her up, and terrified her, and made her want to leave here right then, was that as a three-year-old she realized that people on this planet still went to war!
I woke up at about the same age, when the U.S. dropped not one, but two nuclear bombs on cities in Japan. Right then, I knew that the Bomb would blow up the planet in my lifetime unless I personally stopped it. So you could say that I had my mission right then, just as she did. Yet, unlike Enelia, I was paralyzed by fear for decades. I felt like Chicken Little, and pretended to live “from the outside in,” while knowing it to be a mask for something else that I was supposed to be doing. I felt like a fake and hated my life.
My wake-up call was an illness at 26 when I almost died and was commanded, by a loud, booming inner voice, LIVE OR DIE, IT’S YOUR CHOICE. As soon as I made the choice, the peritonitis disappeared and my life changed. From that moment on I have lived from the inside out.
I think she’s right, there are thousands of people just like her doing this kind of job. We are everywhere, each of us holding a center of equanimity during this historic, climactic era when humanity gradually or suddenly learns to shift from duality (and war) to oneness (and peace).
What warmed my heart about this video was the fact that it did feel so ordinary. So obvious. Just common sense, that she and I and many others would be sensing in common both the passing phenomena that keep most people distracted and enslaved, and the spacious, noumenal, infinite reality that lives within and beneath and above it, what is “beyond space and time,” as she would put it. What connects us all. This oceanic Love that moves through and lights up the world once we let fear go.